There’s nothing like the month of January to get you thinking about what you should be achieving, changing and improving. And putting a tonne of pressure on yourself…
I also think I never properly reflect on my age, 29, and the fact that this year I’ll actually be turning 30. It’s crazy to to me.
I’m pretty sure I’ve always stayed in some protective bubble of labelling everything as ‘being in my 20s’ and now suddenly I’m on the edge of the cliff of that decade – and can’t even comprehend how quickly it’s happened
Perhaps the biggest fear factor is the lack of safety net. I guess when you’re young you can make rash decisions, jump around, be a bit sporadic and blame your mistakes on your age. But it definitely feels like there’s a shift.
It’s not to say it’s a bad thing being older, wiser and responsible – it’s more to say that you don’t really have an alternative option anymore.
So naturally it makes me think about goals, almost like a midlife crisis. What have I put off for too long, what do I still need to fix – and what dreams do I need to let go of.
Being a future gazer I would love to see how things pan out five years from now. Especially since the change from five years ago in my life has been so monumental.
I also think back on being 21 and the burning ambition I had with no fear factor. I think about if that will come back or if it’s just the way you think when you’re young and have no concept of cities, jobs (and real life).
One of the greatest advantages to getting older though is becoming self-assured, knowing who you are and being self-reliant.
I think that, combined with the fact that you’re more aware of life being finite, really helps you to be more mindful and appreciate the things you might’ve taken for granted when you were younger.
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